Saturday, January 21, 2012

Sappy Saturdays

So how was your week?

Mine went well, very well, taking a day at the time and the more days, the more I know I'm at peace.

Went to one of my fave places for a burger today and also received a dozen, beautiful red roses delivered to my house today, so love is definitely in the air here, with sweetness, and just making every day a Valentine's Day right now!! Even Flossie Mae has unexpectedly attracted all male cats for the past 2 days and she will probably be delivering kittens. I was late getting her fixed and was assured that cats don't go into heat until Spring. hummmm.......not here. LOL

So inspired, I decided to set up a few of my favorite Valentine's decor on top of my piano around my new roses and take a look-see:


A cup of tea anyone?

Times like these when I dust and can see the furniture. ;p

I love tea. I have some new Youthberry tea with orange from Teavana and have carefully enjoyed the full antioxidant benefits of it since I got it last week. Full of savory healing, wholesome and delicate goodness.



and there is one certainty, time moves right along.

And that is a good thing as I ponder many circumstances, some given to me unexpectedly in this life, but all have a purpose to fit somewhere. In time.
I have confidence in that much.



I got out some of my favorite pillow keeps

This one is from designer, The Sampler Girl, stitched by me. One of her freebies.


The top one, a freebie by Primitive Betty's stitched by me and another one which I love so dear.

I also love small quilt heart pillows. And this one just looks good here too.



And as I said this is Sappy Saturday as I miss my kids, now adults and hold them in my heart until they decide one day maybe to reconnect. I'm at peace with it. I know they will do what their heart leads them to do. They've tried many things to put a divide between us but in time they will learn the wisdom that mama's always love their babies and will miss them too.

It feels good to come to acceptance of these and many things that are "on my heart" today.
Because I know that really all things work together for good according to His purpose in his Time.
That's a promise I keep with MY heart.



and the roses, ahhhhhh, yes the beautiful roses. Mr. Darcy really does exist, ladies!

Now that's a sappy story as well with most of it unwritten for safety reasons. But as I've gotten a few emails about "the BodyGuard Situation",
this is where I must tell you the truth as he chose to live another life for the past several years, a life full of lies and deception, dishonesty and hurt, danger and pride, and I was absolutely unaware of many of his deceptions until July of this past year, but there again...... It was my time, my prayer was answered in months and as he strived hard to hurt me as much as he could, he really ended up being destructive to himself.
He is no longer in my life and I have no ill-will for him and he knows that. I am so glad I finally saw the light, the real kind of what kind of light he carried on our journey.
The rest is unwritten and will stay that way for safety reasons, but all in all, I feel safe with the One that loved me first, My Heavenly Father.

He protected me many times in my life and this past year was one of them.
He surrounded me with true friends and those who chose to say curt words and leave my life, I accepted their decisions as well, as they only didn't really understand, thank goodness the hades I went through so there is peace with that and those I've connected with are purposely only positive people right now.

I learned a hard lesson on trust many times in my life as many of you have too in yours. I am no different and am just saying that if you listen to your heart, your prayers will be answered. Just get ready for them to be answered in ways you may not think it will be.

By my bed is framed Be Still and Know I am God, and I see that when I awake and when I go to bed.
I stitched it a couple of years ago, designed by The Sampler Girl and it's given me so much encouragement.
So, last year, yes I went through a horrendous divorce with a man who's goal was only to hurt and hurt bad in every way.
I'm a thankful woman for the blessings I have and for the love of God to protect me even though he used every low avenue he could to deceive and perpetuate his deep seated lies.
I hope none of you go through this kind of betrayal but if you do, remember.... that there is a rainbow after the rain.

As a totally not interested person in relationships at all after all that, I guess another door opened, and this time, I have never felt so much peace inside with the friendship we've attained. It's refreshing, rejuvenating, lifting, and totally awestruck by the miracle God put in my life after Christmas Day.
The story will be unwritten here but all I can say is that ONLY God would be one to put this together and things that have happened are amazingly refreshing.

And for this, and other reasons, stitching, has been much to the side in the past several months.
But there are seasons in life that we all go through and I ONLY choose to respond and be with positive people as the negative, I really can't relate to and it drains me right now. I love to help others but those that are hurtful, I let go. It was time.
You wouldn't believe (maybe you would) some emails I got during this time from some bloggers.
I really felt sorry for them. I don't think they understood at all. But, I hope you know I heart each of you reading this blog, for whatever brought you to it today to read.









sometimes we don't know where the tree stops and the water begins but the reflection I see out my window one evening said it all.



Sometimes what we think we are living is only a shadow.

So, I'm totally in God's hands with what doors open next, but I will always trust Him forever.
I think 2012 and beyond is another chapter of life for me. Even the love of music is coming back for me. And it's nice to have someone to share that with.

So, I'm enjoying each day as best I can and that's the best we all can do.

One day the rest of the story will be written. It may require a book format! LOL

Through all this I learned these lessons:

1) no marriage or relationship can be based on dishonesty, deception, lies, and abuse
2) it takes 2 mature people to make one, just one doesn't work
3) never take a day for granted, it might change your life forever
4) thank all the friends who stuck with you and even those who chose to leave you for it showed you who really cared to start with.
5) slowly open your heart to a real kind of love because it can happen.
6) hug your children every day if you have the chance. If you can't, always hope, never lose hope.
7) if you've never seen your marriage partner open a Bible until his lies are found out, then pretends to do so and uses the word of God in a hateful way, RUN, don't walk. No matter what. God does not come looking for us. He knows where we are, we look for HIM.
8) accept nothing less than God being the foundation of a marriage relationship
9) life is too short to waste it trying to explain to former "friends" when they want to run as if it's contagious. If they were really your friend to start with, they would still be with you, if they dropped you for whatever, just nod, bow, and open the door for them.
10) Take safety seriously. If someone, anyone, comes to you in a dangerous situation in fear, don't say "I don't want to get involved" because in essence you really have taken the abuser's side by turning your head.
11) Pray. Pray without ceasing even when nothing but tears are flowing and you're speaking to the mountains and no one else because He DOES hear our specific requests and He already knows what we need if we just ask and be still. Patience. His TIME not ours.
and most important
12) I've found out twice what love is not so I can better recognize what love REALLY is. Even though I went through alot through the years, I'm thankful because I wouldn't know without the contrast.

The more days go by, the bigger the rainbow gets.

I hope you  have a  lovely Saturday evening and thank you for taking time out of your day to read my sappy moments today as I reflect on some very deep things, love, clean and take care of my home.

Home is Where the Heart Is means much more to me now.

Till later,
Jennifer

19 comments:

  1. Your tea set is gorgeous! I love how you arranged your special things on top of the piano. Every time I try to do that, it looks awkward. I guess I need to practice more instead of giving up! Happy Saturday!

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  2. What happened? Seems like you ended in mid sentence.

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  3. {{{hugs}}} I love your vignette. It includes my tea service. In storage right now but not forgotten. I got the set from my mom. I am glad to hear that you are doing well. :)

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  4. First of all, HUGSSSSS to you!

    I really enjoyed this post, not having any idea you went through all of that last year. I only knew you went away for a time. Something inside told me that's what was going on, but I didn't feel it right to intrude. Thank you for sharing your thoughts so eloquently on your ordeal. And I absolutely agree with your "things learned". I would love to share them with my sister, with your permission of course, as she is going through a nasty divorce herself after learning he was deceitful. Yes, he too tried turning to the Bible when things began to unravel, but God pulled her through and is keeping her strong. She has been married to him almost 25 years. The interesting thing in all of this is that she and I have gotten closer. Her relationship with God has gotten stronger. And early on, she was told something powerful by her mother: God spoke to her through prayer and told her that her daughter (my sister) would not come back to Him until she was away from her spouse. I do believe He has a higher purpose and sometimes it takes going through the challenges to get us closer to Him.

    May God fill your home and heart with Peace, Joy, and Love!

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  5. yes, Jules, it's fine. It's just what poured out of my heart today when I got those flowers and cleaning my house and reading God's word. The experience did draw me closer in my relationship to God as I clearly saw that the man I married had no idea of what God really was. His actions were so full of mistruth in retrospect it was sickening. But this kind of thing can make one be BITTER or BETTER and I refuse to be bitter. I will be thankful for it, for it helped me see that true love does not have fear and does not use other people for their own arrogance and lies.

    Jennifer

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  6. Your display with the roses looks great,love the little valentine additions :-)

    I've been through the divorce bit, not nice, but, came through the other side stronger, as you seem to have too :-)

    Take care

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  7. What a great post!

    Well you definitely know I am here should you need me.

    What beautiful decor and what awesome flowers!

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  8. You seem to be a woman of amazing faith which is much to your benefit. I hope 2012 is the beginning of a wonderful new chapter for you and I wish you many good things to come. God Bless!

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  9. I want you to know I pray often for you, Jennifer. I am sorry to hear of your divorce but it seems you made the right decision. I am glad to hear you have found what I pray is now going to become a wonderful friendship that God will take where He wants it to go if you leave it in His loving hands.
    God bless you,
    Sandy

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  10. I don't post often but read your blog regularly. I am so glad that you are safe and coming out the other side. You are so right troubled times really let you know who your friends are. You are a very talented lady both with your decorating and your patterns. I will keep you in my prayers. May God bless and keep you..

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  11. Wow, that's a really powerful post, Jennifer. I think we're all here to learn lessons, and this was a hard one. Sometimes, the people we love don't love us back. They hurt us, deliberately, because they feel we're not good enough for them, or that we're judging them. I'm so glad to know you've given yourself to God, and are open to the opportunities he gives you! Be well, my friend.

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  12. Jennifer, I have prayed for you often in the past year. I am glad you posted what happened and that you refuse to be bitter. At least, you are safe and able to move forward in your life. Give Abbie a hug and some treats! I'm sure you was your "rock" to lean on for comfort and love.
    Carolyn

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  13. So sorry to hear about the hard time you went through last year but it is good that you are being strong and the better person for the experience. Love all the little touches and decorations in your home.

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  14. very sweet post deary..
    sending you big hugs..
    your tea set is so cute..lovely photos..
    keep well and happy sunday too xxx

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  15. ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
    And a pat-pat for little Abbie.
    Marilyn

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  16. Jennifer, My hubby told me once "That all my past expeiences made me the woman that he loved today" and I truly do thank him for that insight. I'm so happy that you are blossoming and feel safe again. I pray for you often and we really should met somewhere for lunch one day. It's amazing that we live about 30 minutes apart but if it wasn't for blog land, we'd have never "met". Give Abbie a scratch behind the ears and enjoy this foggy day snuggled up at home with everything warm and safe again.

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  17. Oh Jennifer good for you. Turning away bitterness is always the right choice, although it is a hard one. I ♥ your Valentine display. I am so happy for you. A relationship with a Godly foundation! Happy days ahead. :)

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  18. I love your blog. Thanks for such beautiful music, your candid words and your faith.
    May I ask you to keep me in your prayers?
    Take care and have a wonderful day!

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  19. Hi Jennifer, so sorry to hear about your rough times. I´m glad you had the strengh to end that relationship. Just keep on trusting in God and in YOU!

    Hugs,
    Laurita

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