Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Hello? Anybody out there?

Maybe it has to do with being a complete gray rainy day or maybe the time of the year ......or maybe alot of things but I just had too much time to think today. Time on the way to work. Time at work. Time at lunch. Time on the way home. I don't know but I did finally come to the conclusion that for the most part, I have one-way conversations. I guess the emptiest part of empty nest is being told by your own parents that your not good enough, that your parenting basically is so bad that God allowed one of your children to die. I thought I had come past that hurt but today is hard. I wonder if she was right all along. And if she is really right, then even God won't hear my conversation.

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  1. Young lady! I hope you have gotten over this & it was just a blah mood of the day. Repeat after me.....Lean not unto thine own understanding. Jennifer, I know you hurt. And your parents didn't always say the right things. Or said too much of the wrong things. But God is always there, He loves you & He is listening to you always. May I suggest a book to you by Kay Arthur? I know you like to read. It's called Lord Teach Me To Pray in 28 Days. It is an excellent book. https://secure2.convio.net/pmi/site/Ecommerce/1397395659?VIEW_PRODUCT=true&product_id=2471&store_id=1101

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  2. Thanks, yes, that was a bad day but I still can't forget that. I mean, if your mom thinks that, then its kinda hard to forget it.
    But, I know I did the best I knew how at the time!
    Jennifer

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  4. Itd be sad if it was true. The good thing about the internet is that anyone can call bullshit on anything. Im calling bullshit.Stop playing the victim.

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